拉字至上第二季

看了七八遍，每次看都会有很多感触，整个人也会放松很多，越看越觉得喜爱。 这次从第二季开始看，记录一些小感触吧，慢慢更新。

1.1Tina掀桌那里觉得真的很厉害，Bette的表白是真情实意的，她也不是不受触动，但是照样逻辑清晰掀桌走人。（一表白就又回头的就是志明与春娇了）希望也能始终做一个在这样的情感处境下也能理智思考的人。

1.2 最开始一二季编导可能真的挺自我代入的，所以很多段Jenny作品的画面其实显得很多余又让人困惑，不过后面她应该也意识到这个问题了，所以没有继续用这样的叙述方式，就显得结构平衡很多。

1.3伴侣可能会出轨，友情可能会变质，只有Shane的美貌永恒不变。

1.4原来TLW的bgm从第二季就这么神了吗（Carmen&Snane的录音室XX有感）

1.5这次看觉得跟之前看很大的一点不同就是我真的成了一个和Jenny几乎没有共同点的人了，也算是一件好事吧。

1.6每次看Alice精准吐槽完又后悔的小模样真是可爱极了！明明比宋丹丹可爱！（如果身边能有一个TLW里的人成为我的朋友的话，我不要Shane，也不要Bette，绝对希望是Alice）

1.7Tim还是个好boy，总的来说，虽然作者让他走之前黑了他一把。（也说明了所有的分手炮都注定是不愉快的）

2.1当律师说「Did you make a home for her,did you cook, decorate,entertain,fill the house with liveliness and warmth？」的时候Tina还是情不自禁地笑了一下，很甜蜜地回忆的笑，真实又心酸。btw律师姐姐再年轻一点也是我的type！

2.2 助理真是太惨了，一般露脸都是Bette发火，Bette不发火他一般也不露脸，然而Bette经常发火…

2.3 还是觉得写作老师跟我高中那个被我称作美杜莎的英语老师很像，每次看到都还是有点虚…

2.4 出柜戏还是单薄了一点，也有可能是国情不同吧，没有国内那么呼天抢地的。

2.5站在旁观者的角度才发现过快地进入对方的生活是一件多么尴尬的事，尤其是中年拉拉的生活。（而实际上我认为Jenny这次做了正确的事）

2.6 说烂了的三渣聚首，还是要再说一次哈哈哈

突然间想写一下关于拉字的，把知乎删了就写在这里吧。 之前一直看推荐上有这个剧，但是鉴于有六季还是没敢追，这次一次看完六季简直是太爽了。看第一季的时候一直还是处于珍妮那个角色，她让我有很强的带入感，感觉就是由她领我进去这个奇妙的世界，打开新世界的大门。然后就开始毁三观，出轨什么的，珍妮开始迷茫，我也跟着这个角色审视自己，真的对这个角色代入感太强了，以至于后面开始虐珍妮的时候我真的接受不了，就放弃了解这个角色了。在第二季的时候我把我的注意力放在了B大身上，我实话一开始的时候我真的没怎么注意B大，因为我真的不吃B大的颜（真香），现在我简直就是B大的小迷妹，在第二季放弃珍妮的时候看到B大出轨，然后看着她出轨一时爽追妻火葬场，哈哈，虽然历经千辛万苦最后还是在一块了（虽然续集里分了，但我不接受，她们就是幸福的生活在一起了）哈哈哈对T也是爱的不要不要的，在T和海在一块的也挺领我意外的，毕竟T的个性在哪里（超爱B），就算会找，也没想到恁快，最后感觉她们俩的复合有点太，T本身就是被小三，现在又来当小三也是绝了（给编剧寄刀片），对肖恩和爱丽丝真的没有太多感情，但是肖恩是真的帅，爱丽丝也是真的逗哈哈，还是希望大家都有个好结局

I'm sorry I want to write down all my thoughts inspired by this lovely serie in English, as a language learner. At the beginning I started this serie just because my longing to learn well English. Maybe also some expective of this kind of history deep inside me. Yeah, I'm also homossexual, a lesbian who till now haven't fallen in with any boys. However, I have some problems phychologically, I mean, I have a strong sense of inferiority, which cause me many times I don't have a courage to express myself, my true feeling. I always used to hide myself behind the caracter I created, which I want others to see and consider me like that, because I always believe this caracter will be loved by everybody around me and I will not suffer from the pain fo being abandoned. I'm a such ridiculous person. I'm always afraid of the criticism from the other people, no matter who. And always misundertand the conceit of abandon and criticism. I just think these two are the same thing. Maybe the fear of abandon make me try my best to satisfy everybody around me and and then I think I will not be abandoned. I realized it's wrong. It's unfair to myself.

Let's back to our lovely serie. I'm so lucky to have this opportunity to know and enjoy it. It show a world that I have always been longing to get it, telling me that all the things I've imagined could turn to reality one day.I can get my happiness,my felicity in the futue. Don't be afraid of anything, you can, on the other side of the world, there are some people that have alrealdy lived in that way and lived very happy. That a wonderful news to me.

The serie also stimulate my dream to know the world. I always want to go to the outside world. It may begin at the time after the Examintation and I needed to choose my university. I only selected those school of the other province, like Beijing, Guangzhou, because I knew I would never only want to stay at that small city, even Sichuan province is also too small for me. I want to go out although at that time I still didn't know very clearly the reason why I hoped so much to go out. Now I understand a little. And maybe this feeling began more early. Maybe that time, when my parents asked me to chooso where I prefered to continuing my high school study, that town or Shifang city, with my grandparents. Yeah, I chosed Shifang, at that young age. Yeah, in the deep heart, maybe I always want to chase hapiness and believe only the outside world exist this chance to change myself. Just the desire to survive makes me go out.

Now Beijing is not enough for me. I want to go far away. I know the actual China is not fitting very well my thoughts. So I should begin another time my new traveling to find other place more proper to me. I'm always on the road and still don't know where is my destination, where I could have a nice break and peaceful life. Maybe I can find, maybe cannot, but I will continue to look for, now that I need to live .

以上是关于一直想外走心理的自我剖析，尽力用英文了。还是想用中文写点东西，还有一些别的想法。想把这部剧给我的新思维都记载下来。

Bette和Tina一直是我最宝贝的一对。一二季里面她们感情的裂痕让我有了一些新的感悟。Bette的出轨（好吧我并不喜欢这个词觉得它带有贬义色彩），确实是情有可原的，正如B所说，她很努力地在克制自己了，但是最终她的理性控制不了她感性的冲动。Tina那段时间和她心理上的沟通障碍以及情绪的崩溃急需要一个发泄点，这个时候木匠（此处不带歧视，只是实在想不起叫啥名了）出现了，她也放纵了自己，做出了让T伤心的事。

我一直觉得人的感情是没法抑制的，我不能用道德去一直压抑自己，设限自己，告诉自己不能跨越这道线，这是错的（Most of our country's education uses this way to limit our behavior）。即使B控制住自己， 心理有了第三人，还是会对他们的感情产生隔阂。问题不能只说是B的，T也有原因。不能单纯因为T没有做对不起B的事，T默默地承受怀孕的痛苦，就把万恶全部推给B，B也是受害者。

粘一段台词 Bette:It's kind of an act of free will,I exhausted every ounce of will I had and I still couldn’t stop myself.Tina is the only person that I am in love with.The fact is she disappeared on me she was depressed and she was completely wrappe in herself I tried to talk to her about it, but she completely shut me out Alice:Out of seven years, I think you can wait it. Bette:She abandoned me as much as I abandon her,we both did it.

虽然从来没有恋爱过，但是我开始思考这种关系。要两个人一辈子都在一起，无时无刻保留着激情，无时无刻相互理解，太难。而我希望，当出现问题的时候，能把有了新的荷尔蒙冲动的一方，锁在另一方身边的，不要是道德。确实很难，如果一方还爱着另一方，而另一方的心已到了他方。那么是告诉她，还是不告诉她。告诉她，她会伤心，不告诉她，她知道了后会更绝望。我总觉得，在充分尊重两个人的感受下，能不能磨合出一种新的方式，能最大可能的减少对两个人的伤害。一如传闻中三毛对荷西的那种处理。毕竟不是不爱了，只是在这一刻没在一个拍上。我也不知道，慢慢探索吧。